50 Shades of Withdrawl

Seriously I have it bad. I got the first Fifty Shades of Grey on Friday last week but didn't really get it cracked into until Saturday so 7 days ago. For anyone who really knows me for lack of better works I hate reading, its just never been something I enjoy but as I said before I was into this book.

On Sunday I had about 50 pages left of this wonderfully entrancing book I couldn't put down, left to read, so I jumped online and ordered the second book. On Monday I finished the first and knowing I wouldn't get to sink my teeth into book 2 for another whole day I flipped to the start and reread it.

On Tuesday about three quarters of the way rethrough the first book, I received the second. BUT I couldn't stop rereading the first, so I finished it....again. On Tuesday night and got to start on the second.

I couldn't sleep in on Wednesday Morning as sometimes I cant after Brian leaves so I cracked in to the second book and lost myself again. I basically spent all day whenever I had the chance, whenever I had a moment free of Miles I didn't want to put this book down. I had only read about 50 pages or so when I decided I couldn't endure having to wait for book number 3 to arrive so I quickly ordered it.

Because I read SOOO much on Wednesday I had it practically finished when book number 3 arrived on  Thursday afternoon. I finished and reluctant to start the final book I picked it up Thursday evening and once again got sucked into this book.

I read and read and read all day Friday and as I sit here on Saturday I'm feeling the withdrawals of this book that i have enjoyed so much coming to an end. I hate endings I don't want it to be over I feel like there is to much more to read about this story this Love story. In all its horror and darkness, pushing past the relenting "naughty" parts, this story, why I'm so drawn into it is because of the profound love this women has for her haunted man no matter the terms and the love this man who believes truly he doesn't have the heart to give finds and embraces and its just beautiful.

So I'm done, sad, wanting, googling if there will be more as it is hinted at the end but alas I'm content to sit and reread this story that I loved reading and did so in just 7 days 1800 pages, so not me lol

Side note! - Down 5 pounds read it 5 pounds since just MONDAY! I love it I feel great!

Different!

For starters bad Sherri its not Friday its already Monday! I have been soooooo busy since Friday that I completely forgot to post! So to get it out of the way as of today I'm down 2 more pounds putting me at yet another small goal I had set which was another 10 pounds before my sister in laws wedding in Hawaii! So goal achieved and one I didn't think I would meet a week ago but this week I just feel different I cant tell you why but different. I'm optimistic in my weight loss journey for the first time in well forever I think and it feels nice.

Back to our busy weekend, I had ordered a new book at the suggestion of pretty much all my "Preemie mommas" friends 50 Shades of Grey, I'm not much of a read but I thought i would give this a whirl as they all seemed completely taken by this book, it arrived on Friday. I did a bit of reading but it was a bit hard to get into at first and it was date night! We went out for dinner then played/ watched a movie with Miles and had a nice evening....I read a bit more...

Saturday was  our insanely busy day, we got up early had to actually wake bean up which doesn't happen often, got ready and headed to our nephews last baseball game! We love getting to watch him play and Miles really enjoys getting out and being there too. It was really nice out and probably 5 times a foul ball was hit over close to where we were sitting and Miles would pick it up and walk with me over to the coach and throw it to him, its was adorable. The game ended and we gave hugs and took off back home, I had to finish wrapping presents!

We were home about an hour and headed to the outskirts of Lincoln to an adorable little girls (a 33 weekers) 1st Birthday party! We had a lot of fun slashing in the little kid pool and just hanging out on there property (so much of it). When we were getting ready to leave a few hours later Miles went to give Brielle a hug and adorably knocked the poor thing over landing on top of her....it starts.... haha.

Onto our next party we were now heading all the way to west Sac for one of Miles little toddler group friends 2nd birthday it was at a place called Bounce U. They had an awesome toddler area reserved just for this little party and Miles LOVED it as soon as he saw his friends he was so relaxed following them around bouncing and playing it was so great to see him in this element we don't get to see it often he didn't care if I was near or far which is a nice relief as usually it matters ALOT. After playing the kids had pizza and cupcakes and sang happy birthday it was so cute to see them all together getting so big.

On our way home I cracked open said book above and read while Miles slept and Brian drove and I started to get really sucked into this book. We got home and Brian had to turn around and leave again for a Bachelor Party and it was just me and Miles and he was exhusted and so cuddly so we just hung out on the couch ....me reading and reading and reading I swear i had to force myself up for air here and there this book just had me sucked into it. I put Miles to bed and read more waiting for Brian to get home but honestly if he was I would probably kept reading anyways. He came home we slept and in the morning I grabbed my book to read more I read basically all day and then around 6 I was about 50 pages from being down and I didn't want to be so I went online and ordered book 2 lol. I finished it and wanted more so I went back online and started to read the preview online.

Seriously I'm addicted to this book I want to read more of it, its completely silly but I do and I feel so um effected by it for lack of better words. Its weird, I'm weird because of it I dunno we will see after I read more I suppose. Anyways my next goal....10 more pounds before August 5th and my sisters wedding wish me luck and I guess time away from my book to work out haha!

Woops!

So admittedly last week I skipped a post, woops!

In reality I didn't feel like posting because I hadn't lost anymore weight and after a bad week I had actually GAINED dun dun dun..... but the entire reason I'm even posting about my weight loss is to be accountable and if I cant be accountable for gaining then whats the point?

So last Friday I had gained 2 lbs which sucked alot, gaining weight just ripes into your sole and makes you feel like a failure. But after a woe is me kinda weekend I picked up my socks this week and was determined to get back down.

Today I'm weighing in down 2.5 lbs so back to where I was plus an extra half a pound yay!

I'm hoping to see some bigger numbers going forward because I feel more focused. One thing that's been hindering my number still is sugar not that I have been having  a ton of it but sometimes I just NEED it and then I eat to much of it like chocolate I could devour a bag of MnM's in no time if I let myself.....talking about it makes me want to let myself lol its suck a weakness!

One thing that seems to really help me when I'm trying to say NO to candy or NO to seconds or NO to junk food is to tell myself that this will not be the last time you are every offered candy, or that tasty lasagna or the last time MnM's are available there will always be MORE and right now you CAN say no.

So for today and my mini goal of all this week I'm going to say no thank you to candy and sugar! Wish me luck!

Yay for Friday!

I love Fridays! I love that I get to sleep in with Brian tomorrow, I love that we get to have 2 little family days to do whatever we want, I love date night!

And believe it or not I love having my weigh in on fridays! So I am down another 1 and a half pounds yay! I will jsut keep on this track and hit my goals in no time! Speaking of goals I have set smaller goals each time my first was 15 lbs, my new one is another 10 so atm its 7 lbs to go!

Im excited for Mother's Day and will post about all the cute stuff my hubby and little man do!

Have a great weekend

So im a day late posting (I blame Brian!) but im offically down 3 pounds since last week, well week and 2 days but yay! And I broke through into a nother 10 count. To explain I think of each 110,120, 130 ect is another 10 count when going DOWN breaking in the one below you are is huge so im starting my new week in my new 10 count that I havn't been in for 3 years which is exciting!

Im so happy these days I think making myself healthier is just making me feel like a happier person. I love my outlook I just want to be happy, not stressed not angry about things I cant control but just happy for what I can.

Tomorrow is mine and Brian's 6th wedding anniversary! Wow how things have changed in 6 years we were just laying in bed this morning before bean woke up and talking about where we were 6 years ago......broke, living at his moms, him being a student me with nothing to do all day. But we had unconditional love we knew we would push through all that and get somewhere better and oh how thats true we are sooooo happy and love our lives together with our little man.!

Accountable!

Not that I have a lot of people reading, this blog really is mostly for myself a place to just document anything I want and later down the road I can come back and read about my journey. That being said I have sucked posting lately!

Miles is getting so big just not his body lol. He has only gained 4 oz in the entire year and actually that number is going down not up which is worrisome, this little dude just doesn't have an appetite so every meal is a struggle that I try to no make a struggle so he doesn't grow to hate eating but its a struggle non the less AGH! But he has gotten taller which makes him look so much older that and he is really starting to do toddler things.

He has gotten a lot more adventurous as of late, climbing up on things standing on his toys doing things without needing to ask for help. Speaking of this little man LOVES to help in fact if you don't let him help he gets mad lol. If I even touch the dishwasher he comes running over saying "help, help" he will take the utensils out by himself and bring it to the drawer for me to put away then I will hand him plates or bowls to walk over 1 at a time to the cupboard to put away, he will grab the tupperware and put it away without my help even cause that's his cupboard! This makes putting the dishes away probably last 15 minutes longer then needed but my goodness its so cute we do it every time, I even find myself waiting until naptime is over some days so I have my little helper. I really am enjoying life a lot I love watching Miles grow into this little boy who is so loving and amazing Brian and I have done a pretty good job so far I think!

About being accountable tho I have been on a journey since December where I'm trying to be healthier and in doing that loosing some weight. Lets be honest here I have TWO maid of honor dresses to fit into this summer (June and August) not that I need to be a certain size but damn I don't want to be the fat one! lol So far I have dropped 20 lbs but I would really like to see it continue to go down. Brian told me about this sports writers article on how he lost weight and 1 thing he did was to be accountable online even if nobody was reading he would post what he lost each Friday so this Friday I will post it. I wont post my starting weight but every week I will "weigh in" and post what I have lost that week!

See you Friday!

Ahhh a new blog, so much more "me". I had a great craft idea I figured I could blog about and then I decided before that I needed a change of scenery on my blog so here it is my new blog and my first new post!

With it starting to get colder out now and Miles on modified quarantine I have to think of some creative ways to keep him entertain/occupied/and work on his sensory issues.

I would love a sensory/light table but atm we cant put out the 300+ bucks on one, so the other day I got creative and made my own little Sensory Box.

Step 1 you take any cardboard box you have lying around at the house and carve different shapes into both sides.



Then I found some white and green tissue paper (can use any) and ripped it up.


After that I wrote what the shapes were below them and shoved the paper in the box. I put it in front of Miles, who let me tell you was so excited while I was putting it together he could hardly wait to attack it lol. I would point to a shape and say "Miles pull it out of the circle" he would reach in and grab it and pull it out.




He just had a blast pulling the paper out of the different holes, he would look into the box when it got low and stick his hand through a hole to find it!






With all the paper out of the box it gave us a new extremely fun game to play.







Needless to say we had a fantastic day with this easy to do craft and play. I'm going to try and figure out more fun things to do with our shape box and other ideas I have and can blog about them to share with my fellow little ones couped up at home for the winter!