It's Okay

First a bit of back story. When Brian and I were expecting our bean we decided not to find out the sex before he arrived, so we had to be prepared for a little boy or girl. In getting ready I told Brian that I wanted him to make the decision on whether or not we would circumcise our son if we had one, I believed he was in a better position to make such a decision. In the end we weighed all the pros and cons and choose we would Circ him.

Fast forward to our baby's early birthday and hearing "It's a boy!". Now normally this procedure is done in the hospital within days of birth or maybe the first Doctors visit, however as with ALOT of things that we had a change of plans this did as well. They wont Circ in the NICU as they don't want to cause any more distress or pain along with what these babies are already going through. They will also only Circ in office up until the baby is 29 days old, Miles was released at 25 days old but that was a Saturday and tho we saw his Pediatrician on Monday (27days) they couldn't fit us in.

So now we are referred to the Urologist, they will not do anything until he is at least 6 months adjusted so for Miles that means when he is 8 months, this is because they have to use General Anesthetic. So we just had our Pre Op last week and saw the wonderful Nurse Practitioner who gave us the run down on this not so regular Circ.

We will get called tomorrow with a time he is scheduled probably earlyish, he cant have anything but clear liquids for 4 hours prior, when we get there they will get him all checked in and give us a gown for him. When its time for his surgery the Doctor and the Anesthesiologist will come in and talk to us then I have to hand my baby to them (if he has a hard time they will give him anti Anxiety meds), they carry him back to the OR cradling him, put a little mask on him till he falls asleep then set a IV and get to work. Yay for him not feeling the poke!. This will take 1 hour then we meet him in recovery where we are NOT allowed to touch him what so ever until he wakes up and then I can cuddle my little man and feed him. He will have a week of pretty bad pain and then a month of recovery with diaper changes every hour to hour and half, lots of baths and TONS of Vaseline.

So what I have to keep telling myself is, it's okay to be nervous my baby is going "under", it's okay to be scared it's okay to feel bad. People may think oh its just a Circumcision that's nothing but its alot to me its alot to think about, to stress about, to worry about. I KNOW he will be ok, I know it, but its still OKAY to be nervous.